“Steel Walls” I’m trapped inside these walls that I built to protect myself. Sometimes, people think I’m void of emotion, but that’s what I wanted them to think. I was tired of being vulnerable. Used to being alone, I became a pro at holding back tears. But eventually, I appeared unable to produce tears at
How did it get like this? How did life become such a drag? Who shot up the hamster with amphetamine? Who poisoned the well? Who did it in Palestine? Who’s doing it now? Who got together with the worst of us to come down on our heads? Who put creed against creed and color against color? Who’s making the money from the carnage and ruin? Who’s selling you fear about people you don’t even know? Who did what got blamed on the people we bombed? Who put a boogeyman under your bed? Who made crime so attractive and armed the cartels? Who made ordinary folk into dysfunctional trolls? Who made the cops mean? Who corrupted the priests? Who made one big cluster-fuck nightmare from Round-Up and Ready Whip? Who taught you false history? Who created the river of darkness that runs under the ship of state?
Always Averting my eyes. Average conversing Away from Acknowledgement of Awfully negative feelings. Aware of All vibrations Around me, causing Acute Anxiety.